WE DID IT!

Finally, I got to see it in words. After 15 months of ttc, we're there:) I just had to buy some more tests today, even though I wasn't suppose to test untill tomorrow! I think the picture says it all:)

*gravid = pregnant

Maybe we've done it...

As you can see from the pictures, I have tested, and I got some lines. I haven't gotten my hopes up, because if this is real, it would just be too good to be true. But somehow, I feel that it could be true as I have tested with two different brands and got a second line on both. What do you think?

If you want bigger pictures, click on the links below and than click on the pictures:

Test in colours (A1)

Test in black/white (rfsu)

The arrival of the witch - on to cycle 16

So, I got my period, 5 days late, so now I'm on to cycle 16. At least I will get clomid this cycle so I'm positive! I hope that this will stabilize my cycle so that it doesn't drag out as much! Will try to update my blog more often than I've done lately, I had almost forgot I had it...*lol'

Clearblue digital dismantled

So, in our 15th cycle of ttc and still no luck. That is, I'm no 5 days late, but got a BFN this morning. Dismantled the test and as you can see there are some lines, but these indicate my LH level according to this page :( I'm clunching to straws since I haven't got my period yet, and even though I don't think I'm pregnant, I still have some hope! I feel pretty desperate to take the test to pieces, but I just had to see what was inside..*lol*

To keep you warm

My dear little unborn baby!

I know that you haven't been ready to come yet, but when you feel ready; I have knitted these socks for you, so that the weather wont keep you from coming!

I really hope you would consider coming soon, because me and your father would really like to meet you! Anyway, when you're ready, we'll be here waiting for you!

xXx

your mother

Revolutionizing pregnancy tests?

Why do all pregnancy test have to have two lines that appears if you are pregnant? When you REALLY want to get pregnant, you see the second line if you stare long enough....even thou it's not there. I was sure I saw a line (2 days before the witch came), because in a certain light, from a certain angle, it could be a line, a really faint one...

NOW, if the pregnancy tests had had TWO lines appearing when you're NOT pregnant, it wouldn't be so easy to misread them. Than the second line would NOT appear if you were pregnant.

Good idea or what?

I think I'm going to revolutionize the world of pregnancy tests;)

Doctor's appointment tomorrow

I'm going to the doctor tomorrow and hope to sort some things out.

It feels good to take this step. Hopefully I will get a referral to a specialist that can find out why we haven't been able to get pregnant yet...

So I feel pretty relaxed...I'm expecting lots of uncomfortable examinations and tests, and waiting for test results, and sending hubby for testing, and needles inside of me to get eggs and everything...I'm feeling calm and know, that in the end...it will all be alright...even if we have to go through some tests...one way or the other...it will sort out...

False alarm

The witch arrived tonight, so guess I'm in my 11th cycle of TTC now! Stupid witch! Told her to stay away from me but she didn't listen!

A very faint, thin line - almost invisible

I see a line. Do you?

The line is very thin so it might just be a shadow line - a fake positive:(

Will take a new one tomorrow and keep you updated.

Wise words

La misma esperanza deja de ser felicidad cuando va acompañada de la impaciencia.

(Hope stops being happiness when it is acompanied by impatience)

http://www.proverbia.net/citastema.asp?tematica=21&page=3

Merry Christmas everyone

I want to wish everyone a merry Christmas!

I'm feeling relaxed and enjoying myself these days and today we are going to drink some wine and have a good time!

I'm very slow with posting photos, but will try to get some in here. Didn't manage to finish the sweater for my dear husband but I gave it to him anyway. I'm finishing it now!

Saturday - the morning after

We went to a Chritsmas party yesterday at a friends house and it was so nice. I had bought a really good wine and was really enjoying myself:) So right now, I don't mind if I get pregnant soon or not, because my life is so nice anyway:)

This is probably the first time I'm thinking this in my 10 cycles of trying so I am really happy, and I need to hold on to this feeling. I know that suddenly, it may change, and I get "depressed" again since I'm not pregnant yet, but right now I'm not! :)

Now I'm going to knit more on the sweater to my dear husband. Will see if I can post a picture of it later for you to see:)

Have a really nice day and enjoy life as it is, right now:)

Day 13, 10th cycle

For the first time I am testing for ovulation. So far, I have been testing on my 11th and 12th day, and both tests have been negatives. Don't feel like I'm ovulating today either, but who knows..I just have to test today as well.

Since it's the first time I'm testing for ovulation I really hope that I will get a positive test. What if I'm not ovulating? Don't want to think about it. I'm sure I'm ovulating:) According to my cycle scheme, I'm in an extra fertile period now, and should be ovulating soon. I'm so exicited:) Really hope I will get a positve ov-test:)

Esperanza - hope

To hope that the world treats you fair just because you are a good person, is the same as thinking that the bull won't attact you because you're a vegetarian...

This is a blog about my life, my feelings around the topic ttc...sometimes it feels hopeless, but I know there's hope for me as well!:)

A big thank to Kizzibea who inspired me to write this blog.